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The website is currently underconstruction, including this page! Future changes are likely to be made so come back later to see those! :3🌠🌠🌠
basically the transition log is a log keeping track of my experienced changes on estrogen! I wanted to do this cus I want to document the developments specifically of an African transfem which I know would be incredibly difficult to find anything of relevance on the affects for such an individual. Like how your skin tone increases, which is smth I predicted just by looking at my family members but couldn't say for sure but I eventually found out that yeah that's smth that happens. It's little things like that, that I wanna document in one place for people like me tohave a better grasp of what chemical transition looks like for them. I'll be doing it daily for the first 2 weeks, then weekly over the next 2 years, and monthly after that. Unless I decide otherwise or smth... So jar! :3
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Forgot to give yesterday's update award🥇 Cus that happened I'm combining the 2 days together
- dehydration
- mood swings continue
- LIBIDO FALLING(gradually)📉📉📉
- sleepiness increase (happened before but has reached a consistent state enough to be noted)
- increased sensitivity to sound
- fat in chest area (I'm probably just going insane it was probably there before)
- improved focusing ability (I can adequately engage with academic topics again)
- accusations of having teen girl mood swings
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I'm late to writing this by abt 13 hours but whatever. So basically at the time when I was supposed to write this I would've been abt 24 hours on e, and I had experienced a couple changes that I will list in a LIST this time which I will be doing going forward so jar :3
- mood swings
- increased emotional vibrancy (not too much tho)
- more difficult to reach climax while *gooning* (I JUST WANTED TO CHECK OK)
- my crushes are really pretty, as in they look more so than before (like waow seriously)
- minor skin softening not anything significant tho
- boosted confidence (which has the added affect of fucking up my voice when I talk only a little tho)
- overall still happier and more expressionate but I've calmed down quite a bit
- significantly improved mental fortitude
- "reactionary forces of the mind" have been either abolished or significantly weakened (basically my mind is finally calm)
- meowing
- *slightly* decreased libido (I ONLY KEEP CHECKING BECAUSE IT'S A MAJOR INDICATOR OK!!!!)
- ABOLITION OF UNPLEASANT BEHAVIOR, "MASCULINE MANNERISMS," AND SHAME WOOHOOOOO
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As of the time of writing I am currently about 3ish hours on estrogen and it is quite good albeit a very slow process. Generally feeling a progressive feeling of "awakening" despite being quite tired (I go to sleep early these days to get more homework done in the middle of the night). I feel a strong sense of being at ease. Idk if this has to do with the fact that I have just accomplished the most grand achievement in my entire life thus far or if its the estrogen but either way I think this is smth to note. Oh yeah and I can feel my "cognitive dysphoria" gradually disapating with time. At this point its really hard to tell what's a placebo and what's the estrogen but what it is I'll take it! Feeling a lot happier too... Hoping for more positive developments throuought the week!